I am probably writing this for myself more than anyone. This week has been utterly weird in the sense that I’ve been so demotivated to do absolutely anything regarding work. The scary part is that I don’t even feel like drawing – the one thing that used to get me through slumps like these. I’ve been burnt out before but this feels very different. My mind feels lethargic and as a result my body too. I’m still figuring out what it is that’s pulling me down this much. (Its not PMS time so I know its not that either, would’ve been easy to blame it on that otherwise!) However, there is one thing that is still keeping me involved and active – cooking. A bit surprising but at this point I’ll take whatever works, even if its nothing to do with my work and business. I’m just trying to get through one day at a time and not feel utterly useless at the end of it. Atleast I’m eating healthy and well,ha! I know all this sounds too sombre but I know for a fact that this WILL pass. Because I’ve been through something like this before. Many times in fact. And I figured it out each and every time. The only catch is that the root cause is different each time and it takes a while to shift my perspective and come up with a solution.
I’ve been on this entrepreneurial journey for about 5 years now and I accepted that phases like this are simply a part of it. In fact every time this happens, it means there is a major change that I need to make. I’ve learnt that I cannot crumble to it every time but instead look at it like any other problem and arrive at a solution that works in my best interest. There is no right or wrong solution, the important thing is to KEEP GOING and not get stuck!
My action plan now looks something like this for the next 3 days (the weekend) -
1. Finish cooking dinner.
2. Do a short workout in my living room for about 30 minutes.
3. Take a walk on the terrace with Ravi post dinner : )
It rained a while ago, the wind outside feels absolutely lovely.
4. Eat some chocolate.
5. Try something new first thing in the morning tomorrow (I’m thinking meditation? I was never able to do it properly but something tells me its what I might need)
6. Finish off some little tasks I’ve been putting off that don’t need me to be “creative”– messages to reply to, appointments to make, accounts work etc)
7. Have a nice long catch up call with a good friend.
8. Watch an old comfort movie. (TOGO on my mind)
9. And finally - Try to draw something.. anything.
Basically to seek little joys :)
Now these are a mix of things that I genuinely feel like doing and some that I have to get done (like accounts ugh!). I wasn’t always this optimistic though. It used to be an unfortunate mix of panic, rushed decisions, overthinking and comparisions, a disaster in short. Now I know a little better than that. I’m still not sure how this is going to unfold but I’m curious to see the end of it : )
Here's a little rain video I took in an attempt to capture the sliding water droplets
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